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Running away, Please go as far as you can, People might caught you up if you stay, As long as you can rest comfortably, Just go, Far away from my side and all. I don't care, Because finally, I've got to understand your heart for a while, After you left, I want to know, More and more, About how are you doing till now, Are you okay being all alone? What are you up to? Is working making you restless? Do you want to be free for once? But, perhaps when we meet again, Till then, i will just let them go unanswered, And smile along the time, I hope you enjoy your journey. Like this, like that, Why people keep on liking other things but not ourselves? I know all along that you too, trying hard, Same way like them, Avoiding yourself from exaggerating things, When you reach for the dream, It was not your fault, That things got worse, It was just that your way towards it is different. Going hard, on and off, Why didn't you reach for my hand? Hold me s...

How's your faith today? Hope all is well for you and for me too. It is hard to update lately as I am keeping up with my life. Also, keeping up with courage to live my life well. Since last year, I lose my courage to be good as well as do good, and that's what made me wonder about my well-beings. Because I like to ask a lot of questions to my own self, this kind of anxiety kept me from looking forward. It is like my mind keep on asking questions but my heart keep on saving them all. Rather than solving them one by one, all of the questions are yet to be answered. May be that is why people said, "It is better to not knowing at all". Why these questions kept on popping out from my head? If you ask me, my answer is that I keep on reminiscing the past. Why I was excellent before but not now? What made me good before but not now? Why am I lonely now but not before? How did I live my life before? What happened before that made me now? These kind of questions keep o...

Me and you, We are going towards the same pathway, It is the one and only sacred road that are paved in front of us, I can see, far away towards the end of direction, She is waving her hands and calling away a name, But, it is sad to hear her calling your name even its meaning is undoubtedly good to hear to. The first person to hear her call is me, Yet, her heart and her eyes did not even carved my name on the wall and the pupil, I look straight to her, she looks straight to you, Do not even realize that my heart is going towards the corner of its wall, Good enough to know that it just only breaks for a second of sight. My lips somewhat utter a word, answering her calling, Trembling in anxiety with a bit of courageous mind, Relying much for my heart to stay strong, Not going to take place my disappointment with also her gloomy eyes. Heartlessly she replied, without searching for my eyes, my shadow did not even catch her attention away, She is smiling towards y...

I can't sleep, Have been a while since the last chapter, Get me into a new story, So, let me have a  dream. I can't always be awaken in this world, Like they the dreamers, Bring me to their fantasy, Teach me the way they survived the swing, I knew it must be painful, Knowing that, that's what made me firm, To swim into the sea of tears, To swallow all the hardships, and To heal my own scars alone. Even if it might be dark, Sometimes closing eyes is way better than looking, Silently walk into the hollow way, Narrow or wide, nobody knows, What might be in the front? What might drag us back? Truly saying, it's just a wandering. But, A chance is a chance, Somebody might grab the luck along the way, Coloring the dark with a light touch, Like an used brush with a palette, And that's way too beautiful to imagine, When we dream a different dream That other people can't. It's like, Yours, mine, Ending with a similar door, B...

I see adults, I see teenagers, I see kids, They are all going towards one way only, The way that differs from one another, Only they knew it well, And here I am, Crawling slowly, Wandering either it is better for me, to stand up or to keep sitting. Sometimes, I am jealous, To see them proudly saying their dreams, Running towards their going-to-be reality, I did know and so did they, It was not easy to hold on, On a string that is more fragile than eyes can see, They were struggling every day and night, On a path that is rougher than what other people crossed, When they were firm to convince, Family, friends and all people around, That what they've been dreaming since day 1, Is what made them the way they are today, And, if God wills, the flower way will always be their way along the journey. The struggle of a dreamer, Let it be me or you, Even for them and for others, Some is way too easy, Yet, way too tough for the rest, But know what? We all fel...

I knew it is quite sometimes for me updating the blog. But yeah, how's your faith? Hope all is well and for me too :') I want to recommend a drama about a family. It is actually a married couple, but as you watched every episode, you will know it is actually not only about marriage. Its title name is "Go Back Couple" which is a Korean drama. The story began with a quite cliche for the first episode of a drama about marriage. With both of the main actors asking for a divorce. Yeah, I love watching dramas like this. A love between two people that you already knew that they will ended up together in the end. As it is under the name of marriage. Their story line actually made me somewhat convinced? Something like that. Haha. As the story developed, it will actually make you have a mixed feeling. It has humors at first yet, upon reaching its climax, you will eventually burst into tears. Yeah, as for me, I was crying in silence. Huhu. It is about family so, it is whe...